Crushes. ;)

Crushes. I can't believe I still haven't already wrote about this topic.

Hmmm, well the simplest explanation of this particular word is that a crush is when you like this person so much that you think of him every single day, and you catch yourself wanting to see him even if you tell yourself you don't want to care. He's not someone you just like because he's good looking, but its because every single thing attracts you. Every single flaw.


I remembered having around 4 crushes since I was 11. It was a pretty irritating experience actually, can you imagine, liking a person so much but not being able to do anything about it. Partly because I am a girl. I honestly think guys who are brave enough to confess to their crushes are really cool. I can't imagine how many times they might have thought to themselves "What will she think? Will she hate me? Avoid me?" That's just so unnerving. Then again, its a really smart thing to do, because all relationships have to start with a confession. Like, duh. 


Side track. There have been many many times I get this feeling that someone likes me. Its weird but it actually really boosts your self esteem. At the same time, it unfortunately also makes you more insecure. Having to worry about how someone looks at you, thinks of you. There are times you just lay on your bed and wonder if anyone is actually thinking of you. This sometimes makes me feel really pathetic, actually.

I soon realized that if someone really likes me, they'll like me for my flaws too. So there is really no use having to worry about how I act around anyone, even if its my crush.


I've heard of many relationships starting because one of them is lonely. At this teenage phase of our life, its normal to feel unwanted, ignored and lonely. Many at times such insecurities and feelings might convince us that the only love and acceptance to have is through a relationship. Sadly, many of these relationships end badly as its not actual love, its just an act of impulsiveness when the girl or guy is lonely. Such a pity.

"Don't let loneliness drive you to someone's arms that you're not meant to be with."

I think that everyone deserves someone they look forward to seeing everyday. No teenage life is well lived without crushes.